Life is tough

Today had another close to 5 hr lab. I feel like an idiot throughout the lab. The teaching just dont sink in, keep asking homan what is going on. It is only after the whole lab when I consolidate everything n scan it through while waiting for transport, that I ustd what is going on. There is so much stuff to learn!

After lab, I went back to E2, sat on the beach n stared into space. G Leng n ah lim both not ard, the place is very empty n quiet. Those were the days, work was heavy but do-able. SJ n I chat n joke w each other, w profs n friends. Now, I feel like a commoner in a party of high-flyer. & my cubic has to be far from everybody. Seems like I am always left out of the gp. But I do value that quiet and calm it gave me.

Went to cad cam center too, already after 6 n the door was locked. I tried my masters matric card n it say "permission denied", similarly for my undergraduate matric card. This means that i am officially not longer a part of the engr faculty. But, as usually, the right side of the door near the E2 lift is faulty n I manage to get it. Haha.

Atheneum is too far from engr, although it is in E4. I feel so much comfortable just walking ard E1, EA, E1A and E2. The feeling of closeness and familiarity is a huge contrast to the dark unknown of knowledge pushed to me during the past 3 weeks of lectures n labs.

They say that when one door of opportunity closes, another door of opportunity opens. I hope that I did not just hang on to the spoilt door of cad cam and did not see the door that has opened. 缅怀过去 will get me no where. Work Hard and I will succeed. Even if it cause me 100% of my personal life. 未经一番寒彻骨 焉得梅花扑鼻香.