Genius

There are 13 students in our Masters program, several of them are genius. Truely genius, i became much frustrated studying beside them, especially the last week.

I dont considered myself as genius. I know my own standard and where I stand. The main reasons that I got my 1st class is because I am very very hardworking and the pie is big enough for me to get in. Also, I am not fighting head-on w all the genius.

Now, in the Masters program, the pie is very small and i am working side by side with the genius. Now i really feel the heat. It took me 4 days to finish my C++ code and report, HM took a day n JJ took a night. It took me 2 days to think of the answer to linear algebra and they took an hr after mathematica lab to settle it.

In the past, hardworking still works. They put in 2hrs, i put in 5. If needed, i will put in 10 if necessary. Now, with the amount of work piling, i can no longer afford to put in extra time. Furthermore, the topics taught r much more tough and spending more time doesnt mean u can get the answer.

This explain why I am feeling so pek chek this week. Esp when they r talking abt chim stuff abt studies which u dont ustd.

Luckily, i settled this issue last fri. Went for a swim in the morning, relaxed the mind and body. Had a walk ard EA and E2, Cleared my mind. Remember what prof khoo said, there is no 1st class or 2nd class in masters, what really matters in your research, not the modules u took.

I am not and shld not be comparing or competiting with the genius. I will not win them, but I also dont need to win them. we are susposed to be complementing each other in research, helping each other out. There is no need to compare myself w them. Getting a B for a module seem reasonable now, A are for them.

With that though in mind, my mood cleared. Enjoyed this weekend pretty well. Went shopping w SJ on sat and went back to my ah ma house on sun. Had a very interesting chat w willy before i sleep. went for a swim this morning, too bad the rain came in, but there will also be tmrw.