MIT - Hell on earth

Spent 1 week in MIT, the world famous university. Today, a day of intensive coding in my room, I finally finish the main part of the code which solve the 2D 2nd order wave equation.

Suddenly it flash across my mind that I can follow SH to NY tonight or follow SW / MH to NY tmrw and come back on sun or mon to meet Tony. But I just told the gang that I am not going NY yesterday. Then the cold hard fact that I havent actually finish the code and havent made a trip to the library to read up on the wave equation sink in.

Finally convince myself that staying put in MIT is the correct choice.

Then SW told me that S,YM, ZL, SD are all planning to go NY. 80% of the class are going. wow, almost sunk into depression.

Spent the rest of the day reading zaobao to de-stress....5 days of back-tracked news to read

Dinner time n realise that my house-mates, both of them, M just came back yesterday, went out. Fri night, me all alone at home....


My lab is within the main buildings, those roman columns archit, solid n impressive, telling the world that we change the world within these buildings. Everywhere is history in the making. remember the first day, i was inside building 7, the smaller dome beside the main dome. I was inside, staring towards the ceiling. there was inscription, "Established for advancement and development of science, its application to industry, the arts, agriculture and commerce"....I feel so small.

S n G, both under Tony, were kind n friendly. helped me alot in easing into the lab environment. All the pple in the lab were forever busy, what they r discussing, i dont have a clue at all....


Suddenly, remember these words " 科以人重科亦重，人以科传人可知 ". Realise that I am forcing myself to work, giving myself alot of pressure, to live up to the expection of what is worthy of a MIT student. Half the class are treating mit as a chalet or holiday while I am coding matlab, frustrating myself with the weak form and the elemental mass matrix; spending 2 days trying to solve an area integral, but failed. Had to convince myself that the answer is that simple formula in prof liu textbook, convince myself to use that formula, convince myself to code in a way that is different from lecture notes, convince myself to take the risk that if all is wrong, i will have nothing to show tony....

我佛慈悲, the codes finally show the correct results.

Dont want to stay in a big quiet apartment w nobody. Played some music n heard this:

命运就算颠沛流离命运就算曲折离奇命运就算恐吓着你做人没趣味别流泪心酸更不应舍弃